I’ve had this question in my mind a lot lately. I’ve got the most wonderful life and amazing people in it. The word “love” pops up a lot and, to me, it has several definitions. It’s not just about that person you love that you may want to spend the rest of your life with, but also about the qualities you find in the people and things around you. The things I love:
I love my dog. I love that fucking 9-pound beast with all my heart and soul. I love my cat, too, because he’s not as demanding of my attention as my dog. He’s sweet. I love that he is a bit more independent, too.
I love my apartment. Sure, it’s got its quirks. Like flush gently. It’s also a girl, I think. I love the things I’ve done to it, like painting my walls and painting canvasses. I love my bed and my extra-special leopard-print sheets. I love the majority of experiences I’ve had in my bed, most of them by myself. I love to sleep.
I love the comedy world, though I hate it at the same time. There are different kinds of love I have for some of the comics. I love seeing people do a great set. Then again, I love seeing some people bomb. I love the people I’m involved with on a personal level in the comedy businesses. I love that some of them are in my mind and heart on a daily basis. I love watching hard work come to fruition and I love their successes.
I love my building and my neighbors, even though I saw one neighbor taking cigarette butts out of an ashtray this afternoon.
I love my job and the opportunities I will have there. I love the company and the way it treats its employees.
Most of all, though, I love myself. I love that I know my limitations. I love that I am finally comfortable with my body, even though it took almost 40 years. I love the artwork on my body. I love my hair. I love my personality and the fact that others see it, too. I love that I love. That after almost 2 years of being hardened inside by love gone wrong, my heart is opening again. Slowly, but surely, I am loving again, in a special way.
I love life. The path that I’ve taken. The good feelings every morning and evening and throughout the day.
I love Facebook. I love Twitter. I love Yelp. I love the people that they have gotten me closer to and introduced into my life.
I love Phoenix and the opportunities I’ve had here. The ones that keep coming. The ones that will come in the future.